Inside Jessi's Head

Today was Rick's uncle Allan's and Aunt Darlene's Wedding. It was nice - It's the first Wedding I've been to for two people in their 40s with grown children so it was a little different but I was still happy to be there. It made me miss Keith though, he's been gone working in Alberta for a long time. Usually he's home for summer vacation by now and we see a lot more of him :(

Tomorrow is going to be so busy. I'm going to work, then leaving in the middle for Ania's Bridal Shower, then coming back for closing, and THEN everyone want to go see Wall-E, which I do too, but it seems like I'm just going to be running around like crazy all day tomorrow!! I will be a happy girl when my head hits my pillow.

Also, I seem to not have time for anything lately. I was feeling a little lazy and the dishes have piled up to the EXTREME!! So it makes me want to do them even less... and then I'm too busy running around to get much writing done on Method Six plus I'm a little stuck on this one part right now... argh... I just feel like I'm not really accomplishing anything useful. Going to Streets and doing dishes pays the bills but of COURSE I don't feel like I've accomplished anything when the night is over. It's just this thing that gets in the way of my writing and house keeping which I have to do if I want to afford to keep writing and having a home... blah... and now I am going to do some escapist reading until bedtime.

Farewell


Oh, and also, I booked our sites for the August camping trip. We're leaving Sunday, August 10th and coming home on the Tuesday after that. :) Ahhhh I am SO looking forward to sitting in a camping chair doing absolutely NOTHING.

Aiyaa! I'm post dating this one because my Friday hasn't actually ended yet although it is now Saturday morning. It poured and I got wet today too! But let's start at the beginning:

Today I woke up a bit late - actually I woke up to Richard standing over the bed shouting at me to get up. He got off work a few hours early so we decided to go in to Sarnia for the afternoon to get some groceries - which turned into leaving me at Alex and Kelly's to visit with my friend Kelly while he and Alex went and ran errands around Sarnia for the afternoon which was okay with me because I wasn't exactly excited to spend my time before play practice and work doing that kind of stuff.

Anyway, so the boys got back late and then I was late getting Travis and therefore very late getting to play practice - which turned out to be fine because everyone else was equally late. :D hahaha. Um. Yes. Then I had to run home and get my uniform for work while Travis went to Streets and ordered us some foods - I ate way too fast and gave myself a stomach ache - AND THEN it was a crazy busy night once more and Travis and I weren't done until 10:00!!

Blah - Then we waited here for Cara but she wound up going back to mom's house so waiting at the Apartment was pointless and we reconvened at Mom's for watching Death Note which is pretty much all we did because everyone went and did their own thing when it was finished. Then I went home in a HURRICANE* (*actually that's not true...) And waited in my car for a bit for the rain to stop - BUT IT DID NOT STOP!! So I ran - walked fast - and got soaked on the way to my front door.

Now I am sitting on the couch listening to my neighbours screaming at eachother in the rain. It is making me want to write a trashy romance novel. How dramatic, having a fight outside during a thunderstorm which torrential rain... sounds like something from a book for SURE. 

Today I got soaking wet on my walk to work. It wasn't raining when I left though! But it poured by the time I got to the end of my street!! And then there was a bus at Streets, we were quite busy but they had a boy named Jeffery come in to help me. He's going to be the new dish help once Travis leaves after this weekend so I had a chance to train him a bit. Which is good because he didn't know how to mop the floor... hahaha...

Other than that I was completely lazy today. My feet were hurting a lot from so much activity in the last few days so I mostly worked on Method Six and read Manga. I found a really awesome Victorian Era one called 'Emma' and I'm going to finish it right after this post.

Actually I've become a little fasinated by socially unacceptable romances. Like the one in Emma is between a man of the Gentry and a Maid. I had been toying with using this archetype in one of my next books and this just confirms it - I will definitely use it but also try to make it my own and original at the same time. I love the 'People are people, love is love' base for these kinds of stories, anyway, I'm excited to see how William and Emma will solve their differences... so that's all for today! 

Brandon Family Bonfire 2008 was a magnificent success!! You can check out a play by play on facebook with all the pictures everyone took. The day started out with mingling and swimming, and then Alex arrived to get the tunes rolling. As the sun started to set we started the fire and rocked out to Alice Cooper as all the students burned their homework (there were evn some textbooks!!) Following that, right around 10:00, we set off fireworks and nearly burned down a few trees. The fireworks were paid for with everyone's pocket change - we collected $100!! :O

Then the party really got started and somehow it turned into a wild dance party in the backyard! This was my personal favourite part. And as things wound down Travis got terribly drunk and entertained us for the rest of the evening (while annoying the crap out of a couple of his friends - LOL) Then I went to sleep in a tent and slept till noon.

AND THEN!! I went to work today - it was HORRIFIC!! I didn't get done until 10:00!! Not that it was a bad night, I wasn't in a bad mood or anything, but BUSY! My god the dishes!! 

Yes, well anyway, it seems tomorrow is my only day of rest this week - I intend to enjoy it to the fullest!!

I am writing this as I wait for things to finish copying and burning. I am in the middle of making Mp3 discs of all the music anyone could possibly want played at the bonfire tonight... I don't really know what Alex has but I would be sad if we couldn't hear Dota or Dansen because I didn't take the time to make some CDs. Ya, so Rick and Nick are already out at mom's getting things ready. I wonder what kinds of chores mom will be giving them??

I'm glad Haley will gives me a ride so I can get these CDs done. Very happy. :D And the weather forcast says NO RAIN at all!! OMG!! I can hardly believe it!! So this will more than likely be the most awesome bonfire ever, I am getting so excited for it that I actually have butterflies! 0.o

Anyway, I must finish preparing for epicness, I'll post tomorrow with all the excellent details! :)

Dancing all last night after so much work was a bit foolish of me, but I survived. This morning I didn't wake up until about noon... ya... hahaha. Then I went straight in to Sarnia with Richard to pick up Nick, but I didn't want to end up accidentally shaft Krista so we stopped by her house to find out what the plans were - then I wound up going shopping for Anna's gift with her.

It was pretty fun. I haven't done something like that since Duck's 16th birthday party... hahaha!! :D Umm. Yes and then I hung would with Krista for a bit but Rick and I had to get going on the rest of the day so we stopped to eat then headed on home. Soon as we got home though we turned right around and went to Mom's because I was so excited about the bonfire that I forgot today was laundry day... :P Anyway, I just got done doing all that laundry and now I am home.

I was hoping a little that episode 12 of Vampire Knight would be up but sadly it is not. :( Oh well. They say it will be up by Wednesday :D Hopefully.

OH YES! And even though I knew none of the actors were going to make it to the VBS practice I still forgot to touch base with Edith today. Actually since I knew there wasn't going to be a practice I set it aside a bit in my thoughts and completely forgot there was previously going to be one until about 8:00pm!! Sometimes I wonder if my brain is rotting early. The other day I was in the shower and I totally forgot that I planned on leaving the conditioner in my hair while I shaved... then I went to shave and I was like "Crap!! Why did I rinse the conditioner out first?!" ... I also forget things I was doing just a moment ago and I usually don't remember until I'm not in the house anymore... blah.

Anyway, the bonfire is tomorrow and I am SUPER STOKED ... I just hope I don't forget anything! :P

DANCE EPIDEMIC TONIGHT!!!

Hahahahaha!!

I just got home from working all day of the last day of the busiest week ever!! I was going to do the dishes before I sat down but then I just couldn't be standing anymore!! This week has been absolute insanity! But it was fun, nothing horrible happened it was just busy. And so after I finish writing this I need to go and do my dishes - then get the garbage ready for Rick to take, THEN I am driving out to my mom's house to have a dance party with my siblings!!

So I suppose I won't write much... the bonfire is in two days and that is exciting as always. It looks like there are going to be at least 40 people there which is A LOT more than usual. It should be EPIC.

Here I go! 

So. Cara is going to Japan. I forgot to mention that in my last post. She found out on Thursday? ... I think... and it is VERY exciting!! She's leaving on Canada Day and her flight home is on the 31st. Eeee!

Today I read a book. That's about it. I picked up a little just so the house wouldn't be a total mess... but ya... I mostly just read a book. And I slept in pretty late as well since Anime Night last night kept me up late. I made a gigantic pot of rice and then we put salsa and cheese on it. It was extremely delicious. And then we watched anime until the wee hours of the morning.

Oh! And my cousin Celine is down visiting for two weeks. I just keep forgetting to write things! There's so much to talk about!! Anyway, I'm working later tonight and Rick and I are going to go to Mom's for a swim before that happens. w00t. 

Sooooo my new year's resolution was to write a journal entry every day for a whole year. :P I missed so many in February that I just gave up, but then I got thinking that it would be fine to just start again, wouldn't? There's just a four or five month gap with no entries in it. Which is a bit sad because lots of exciting things happened to me in the past few months. I went and saw Travis' in 'The Wizard of Oz' and he was AMAZING!! But they didn't make a video of it!! So my memories are all I have of my brother playing the Lion. He was so great, I wish I had taken the weekend off work and just gone to see him every single night!

I got into a HUGE fight with one of my friends. It was mighty epic and actually all my fault. I'm still a little surprised inside that she actually forgave me. It feels strange and happy now everytime she talks to me like normal - I'm always just a little startled by it, like "Wow. So some people actually forgive and forget." I'm not like that - but then I've never really had someone to fight with like the fight we had. Well anyway, I learned a whole lot about people and I think that helped me inprove my writing skillz.

We had a ton of birthdays in March. My baby sister turned 16, my Husband turned 25 and I bought him a bike. I tried to throw him a surprise party but he found out. Then he told everyone who was invited that he knew about it and that they should just let me keep believing I was going to surprise him. Ya. So anyway, I guess I was the one who got surprised :(

What else?

My brother Shane got married to wonderful Rose on May 10th. It was a great day, I danced until I could dance no more!! And then mom and I worked Mother's Day brunch the next day. IT WAS HORRIBLE!! Never ever ever go to a wedding then try to work at a restaurant the next day!! This is a very bad idea!!

Throughout May and June I have been going to see many many many Movies in Theatres. Speed Racer, Narnia, Ironman, What Happens in Vegas, Don't Mess With the Zohan, and Kung Foo Panda. I LOVED all of them and went on little obsessive tangents for a few days after each one I saw. Along with that I have been reading Manga online (Gomen Manga-ka!!) And I've discovered so many amazing storylines!! I pretty much read one series a week now. Some of the best ones I've come across are: Beautiful Magic, He is my Boyfriend, Moe Kare, Ashiteruze Baby, and Vampire Knight. There was also one called 'Hana Kimi' which was not adapted into an Anime but a live action drama!

These are known as J-Dramas and have increased my Otakuness by 50pts, lol!! My sister and I watched the whole series and it was SO FUNNY!! I discovered something wonderful! I have been thinking about buying the boxset but I just don't know if it will have quality English subtitles. It's important to understand what is going on, right? So I'm afraid to buy because of that. :( And about the Vampire manga, my sister recommended the anime to me but I just wasn't sure. Vampires are creepy, right? I just didn't want an obsession with Vampires to be part of my image so I was avoiding it. Then I finally gave in a just read the manga - and I was hooked... why is it so amazing to read about someone having their blood sucked? I can't quite understand my own facination... But anyway, I moved on to the Anime and have watched all 11 episodes in existance though I understand that there will be 26 of them. :D

I have one read one book since the Twilight Series: 'Magic Moon'. It was a classic fantasy adventure story with a 'alternate world' twist. I'm looking forward to the next two stories in the series.

And I guess I will end this with an update about my Method Six progress. I had started re-writing it in February and now I am halfway through the book. It is really shaping up and is 100% better than the original. Sometimes I read what I wrote just 3 years ago and I can only shake my head. What was I thinking?? This book is especially horrible because I didn't work on it with another person. There was no one to listen to my bad ideas and say "Hey, Jess... that's stupid." hahaha. Well it's true.

OH!! And finally, I decided to be irresponsible and start another story before Method Six was finished. My brother Travis and I have decided to make another RPG and we've been working hard since Sunday to flesh out a plotline and characters. Wheee!! And I also have a TONNE of art which I copied from other pictures to represent Method Six people. You can go to the Album to see! SEE SEE

I haven't written in awhile, but I wanted to vent somewhere that wasn't Facebook...

So here goes. My latest rant and it's all about abortion. I just saw a picture that said 'Keep your Bible out of my Vag.' protesting a bill that is trying to protect the rights of unborn children. Now I don't want to get all tangled up in the political and ridiculous aspects of this, but I have to say that that is just disgusting.

Before I go into full fledged rant mode, I want to acknowledge that there are sometimes when an abortion is nesessary - for example the baby has not developed lungs and will die anyway, or the presence of the baby will be fatal to both mother and child, or some situation like that. It would be more awful to carry the baby to term than to just let it go at that. It is unfortunate and sad, but in that situation it is needed. Aside from circumstances like that abortion is wrong and disgusting.

Also, in a rape situation it is still wrong to abort the baby, but this is also a special and trumatic circumstance which I am not addressing in this rant.

Women who have abortions are the most selfish and horrible girls there are. There is no such thing as not having a choice. You always have a choice, you idiot. Close your legs you distasteful self-centred woman. Choosing to kill your baby just because it is inconvienient for you? Murdering it because you don't want to deal with the reputation you'll have? It doesn't matter what you think about whether a baby is a person or not - can't you see that the reasons for the choices are horrible and selfish? Honestly, start caring about something other than yourself. And it's even more disgusting that in order to justify these henious actions woman start redefining what a baby really is. "Let's give it a new word - like fetus - and say there is a difference between a baby and a fetus so that it's okay to kill the one that's inconvienient to us."

People used to do that a long time ago. Remember in history when African people and Native Americans weren't actually humans? The white people redefined them with fancy words so it would be okay to kill them? Ya. You're doing the same thing you scum. Honestly, after the abortion is done just shoot yourself in the head because you don't deserve to live anymore. Your selfishness is lowly, repulsive, and completely unworthy of life. Your mother should have aborted you.


That's what I think. I am completely disgusted at the moment.

WOW was I ever grumpy today. I don't even really understand why but I am honestly ashamed of myself for the mood I was in this morning. I even went to bed early last night, so waking up at 8:00am wasn't such a big deal - except HOLY jeez.. I was just in an angry mood. Then Rick went and bought groceries and I got to have breakfast so I was feeling a bit better...

I've been trying to work on Method Sic for most of today but it isn't going very well, I really want to take a nap but I'm forcing myself to get this writing done since I didn't do any of it over the weekend. That was really a stupid idea because I seem to have fallen out of the groove of it in the meantime. And did I mention that I have fallen out of the groove of watching Spice and Wolf since this re-write started? I was all excited to but it's just not happening? Why? I don't know.

Anyway, we went out for Chinese for Lunch and Rick's going to cook supper so I will be happy and full for the rest of today. Hopefully the gurmpies are gone. I think they may be from this awful thing I am doing in the re-write right now. I just want to skip right to the next part of the story but that would make many plot holes so I need to write a littl bit of explaining but it's terribly boring and I know if I think it's boring then the readers will definitly think it's boring. Blah blah blah. Yuck. Yuck.

I stayed up stupidly late last night drawing pictures and so got the day started pretty late today. I got up around ten and worked hard to get the last picture finished before I went out to Mom's. I didn't actually get there until afternoon when I realized that today was Family Day and Cara was waiting for me to get there! But the only really entertaining thing I had for her were my pictures. So then we talked about Method Six for a bit, I did Laundry, more Method Six, and then she let me read her story that she had been working on which is pretty good. I think she is going to go places with it, it's a very good idea.

Anyway, then we went and picked up Travis from Play practice, came home, ate dinner, and settled in to play the end of Final Fantasy XII. How epic is that? Turns out it was very epic! I was quite pleased with the ending and this is one of the most coherent ones to date. I don't know what it was, exactly, probably the lack of love story that made it different from any Final Fantasy before. The love story happened before the game begins, and he dies, leaving his Princess Bride to carry on after him. And then nobody hooks up with anybody else. I was impressed and I wonder how the shipping goes in the fandoms? I mean, there was Cloud and Tifa/Aerith, Squall and Rinoa, Zidane and Garnet, and then Tidus and Yuna... then no one in 12? Golly.

Also, the best part of the ending goes like this:

Ashe: Balthier! You mustn't die here!
Balthier: "Haven't you been listening? I'm the leading man! We never die!"
Fran: "Actually I think you're more of a supporting role."
Balthier: (Sarcastically as he is heroically rescuing Fran). "Fran, please."

Hahahaha. It was very good. Oh and Larsa!! Larsa!! Oh!! He was so brave right until the end! I love Larsa so much and he's not even a main character!!

Anyway, the last thing I have to mention is that I drove all the way home, got all the laundry up the stairs, and then realized that I forgot Rick's meatloaf at home. So we drove all the way back there just to get Meatloaf. Haha.

Much pictures happened last night and more will happen after I am done this! Eeee!  They look so great! I got to show off a lot of them to Travis since he was sleeping over after setting up the lights. Now I just need to find a Chak and I will have all the face graphics done!!

Today at work it actually felt like I worked two days back to back. The first day was really slow and boring. "If you have time to lean you have time to clean." Was our motto. So we got out the big guns and even resorted to scraping dirt out of the grout on the floor. Yes, you don't misunderstand, that's really what we did. And I climbed under the dishwasher to wash behind it and get the wall. Puke. Anyway, then the other waitress came in and then went back home for her steam cleaner. She was ready for an evening of cleaning and so were we. Seriously, we went four straight hours without a customer.

Then at five o'clock for some reason beyond me we were SLAMMED!! Travis stopped in for a second and I put him to work! That's how busy we were. I was glad I skipped church and slept in because work was crazy! So I ran my little tooche off and got all pissy at the end because I got so far behind. It really burns me when it's dead all day like that then I get raped with dishes in the last hour of the shift. I know it's not really anyone's fault but still... arg! But I calmed down and we went to Grandma's after work.

The driveway there was like a skating rink! And I clung helplessly to the van while trying to walk around it instead of going through the snow like mom. She almost peed herself laughing at me, but I made it to the porch finally and the good laugh really put me back in a good mood. Anyway, I'm going back to pictures before Laundry Day tomorrow.

So my downstairs neighbour and his girlfriend have epic battles almost every night. I've grown used to it. Most of the time it makes me feel like we're living in the ghetto instead of Petrolia. I mean, honestly, where did that nice old lady downstairs go? I liked her. I mean, I felt a bit disdained by her but at least she was quiet. There is really no reason for you to be awake, throwing things and screaming at 4:00 in the morning, is there? I mean, what is wrong with these people?

Anyway, last night as I was trying very hard to finish the installing of Photoshop I heard them fighting and it was so massive that I swear I was expecting police cars to be outside our building this morning, carting out the dead bodies. I mean, these guys are seriously scary. I'm not the least impressed with this behaviour. We're not teenagers anymore, you know? It's a good thing I'm not God, cause the world population would probably be an eighth of what it is right now. Honestly. 

So they're kinda scary, actually, I've decided that the next time it happens I'm going to alert some authorities or something. This is just stupid. He's like, 23. Act like it.

Also, I have just given up on the Photoshop because I can't get the stupid printer installed. Maybe Richard will fix it for me and I can play with it when I get home from work. *crosses fingers* Maybe?  

Actually, writing when the house is clean seems much easier than doing it in the middle of filth. I will have to remember this, even though I probaby won't do anything about it... hahaha... So I slept in today and pretty much stayed comfy until it was time for work. I really didn't want to go, but then I got excited because I'll be on my own again until Travis or Cara gets there to help me out. Jordan broke his thumb and so I have been getting replacement helpers - most of them are pretty good, like my siblings.

Anime night tonight is going to be so exciting again! But Travis still has pratices going on so we won't be able to beat Final Fantasy tonight. Maybe when the weekend is over, on Monday or Tuesday, we'll be able to pull it off.

Anyway, I'm working hard today! Go me!

So today I got to work and had one dozen roses delivered to me. :) I pretty much have the best husband in the whole world. SO I worked all night feeling happy and loved, then I realized that the card he got me was accidently an anniversary card and I giggled a bit at the mistake. Tee hee. Then I came home to a SPOTLESS apartment!! I can't think of any better gift in the whole world. I am truely my mother's daughter. All I really want is someone else to clean for me. That's it. There is no greater joy in life than coming home to find the house clean. Well, that's probably hyperbole but, oh well, it's almost true.

Anyway, we had a delicious spaghetti dinner with the sauce mom sent home with my on my Birthday. And then we went to bed! HA! Well it was a super long day for both of us! And Valentines day at a restuarant?! I was running my poor feet off! I was a bit wound up so I stayed awake and installed Photoshop on Rick's computer so I could use it in the nest few days, and now I am going to keep writing Method Six / draw some more pictures. There's so much creative stuff to do!

Oh yes, and I never got Mandy's mailing address, so her card is still here. This is two birthdays in a row where I had her gift ready but didn't have an opportunity to give it to her on time. I pretty much suck. Sorry Mandy.

I wonder if the Conservative Government has gotten my letter yet? They sent me a form asking for a donation to their campaign. I selected 'other' and the specified: "A boot to the head." I hope they appreciate my donation to their campaign in the coming elections. *gigglesnort*

Anyway, I worked on Method Six for all of today again. The housework is really lacking but I find myself so wrapped up in writing this that I don't even feel bad! 0.o Does that make me a bad person? Anyway, I was sad when I had to got to work because then I had to stop writing. I'm even reluctant to update this journal because it takes away from precious Method Six time!

Work tonight was fine. I was scared I would have to do chicken wings but there wound up being enough work to do that I never had to. I folded pizza boxes for a bit and thought about my story while I was down there. I worked out a lot of things and now I must go write them! Ta dears!  

Oh yes! And I also discovered my Mortal Enemy today! I actually made a friend on Facebook who is one of Dawkins' lapdogs! :O I didn't think they were real but this guy seriously buys all that crap about evolution! I was like AHHH!! Battle!! But I am much too much of an angry person at this point in my life to have a productive conversation with one of those crazies.

I really wanted to finish Final Fantasy 12 tonight, but Travis was scheduled to do his test in Toronto so we weren't going to be able to. Then mom arranged to have him take it in Sarnia on a later date so we were again! Then he found out he had play practice for the Wizard of Oz until 9:00 at night so we weren't again - unless I once again wanted to drive in a snowstorm. Which I didn't. So anyway, I spent most of the day downloading AMVs and then I burned a DVD of them to take with us.

Rick and I went to Mom's for Tasty Tuesday and we had some kind of spaghetti in a pan thing that I didn't know what it was. 0.o but it was really good and I had two servings. Then I watched the AMVs with Cara, impressed his with their awesomosity, did Rick's laundry, and woke him up to go home. I really didn't want to wake him up to go home because I wanted to play some more with Photoshop but then I decided it was too cold in Trav's room and I would just install it on Rick's computer and use it there, which will have to happen at a later date.

For the rest of this Tuesday I suppose I will write more Method Six. The progress has slowed down a bit and I am very disappointed in myself. So I guess it's back to work. 


And also, why do people keep waiting for things to happen to boost their self esteem? You're a very weak person if you're relying on external feedback to feel good about yourself. How sad. Am I so judgemental because I don't feel good about myself? No, I think it's because I used to think like that but then I realized it was stupid. Now I feel like anyone else who doesn't see that looking for things outside your own brain to validate your worth is just retarded.

You are worthy because you are. Just decided that is it so and it will be so. Everything is entirely in your head.

Today we had a movie day. Rick and I went into town and bought pizzas, salt and we rented Sydney White. Then we cuddled on the couch, ate our lunch of pizza and watched the movie - which I will give an A++ rating, by the way. :) I loved George, he was so cute! And I'm glad for the salt part of that second sentence because the steps up to my house were pretty much ridiculous. hahaha.

Anyway, I'm writing a lot. That's about all I'm going to be doing tonight, this long Monday night. Maybe I will draw a few more pictures, I sorta have a few ideas floating around in my head and I should get them down on paper before it is too late. Anyway, that's about it for today. What a wonderfully relaxing time I am going to have.

Hey you.

Yes, you.

No, not you the person reading this... well maybe... but I don't think you'll ever really be reading this. And if you do, I hope you know it's you I'm talking to.

Stop sucking so much. You're too vain and it's driving me up the wall! There's more to life than your pretty face, seriously. Why are you so obsessed with looking good for the camera? You're losing out on so much life! And what bugs me the most is how so many people sympathize with you! You don't deserve all that support for your make-up addiction. I don't feel bad for you when you're pinching your sides and complaining about your fat tummy, I think you're an idiot. Every picture of you is a fake. You're a souless doll, posing for the camera and giving away fantasies. Where's your personality? Or don't you have one? Is your pretty face all you have to your name? Because that's pathetic ... and it might be why you're always treating others like dirt. I don't think you can even grasp what it means to value something. Your reflection isn't even worth the glass it's mirrored in. So I judge you everytime I see your face in another picture, all your friends smiling around you, with your botox face trying to look like a playboy slut in the middle. Let it go. Stop caring so much about what other people think, because the more you act and play pretend the more disgusted they're going to be.

Whew.

Okay so that's off my chest. I feel better. Today was pretty boring and I wish we could have closed early. Alas, it did not happen. But this morning we got to bring Nick to church with us and I was very happy for that! :D It was exciting to have someone actually interested in what's going on sitting beside me.